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tell me..   
04:36pm 11/01/2008
  why can't friends just be friends instead of making you think they'll be there for you, then turning their backs when you need them most?


i wish things could just be simple sometimes

how hard is it to just keep up on your word once in a while? i understand it's not all about me.. but what the fuck


just because i have a boyfriend, that means i can't have friends too? usually it works that way, but i'm trying to make this time different. i'm trying to make it so that i see my friends all the time, and my boyfriend whenever i have extra time. i want my friends to be my priority.. even though i'm falling for him. i don't want this relationship to get this serious this quick.. why don't people understand that?

apparently my friends aren't actually my friends, and they only want to hang out with me when i have a million guys over partying..[fuckkthem]



..can't wait until next year when i meet new people at SU [hopefully] and get to do what i want when i want instead of people being fucking gay and there not ever being anything to do .. i hate the drama of whitesboro..i thought college would be better than this.

[ikindahopehedoesntmovetoatlanta] this is finally what i've been wanting for the past five years but i haven't allowed myself to have it because i was afraid. now that he's mine, i might lose him soon :/ isn't it funny the way things work sometimes?
 
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wtf...   
12:31am 20/10/2007
  why do some people have to be so absolutely rediculous sometimes?  
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ahhh..   
03:23am 17/08/2007
  why do i do some of the things that i do??


i'm pretty sure that i love my life right now..
 
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secretsdontmakefriends   
11:44am 15/08/2007
  ..but they certainly keep them sometimes.



[i wish people didn't have to find out]
 
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Hmm..   
08:46pm 06/08/2007
  People piss me off so much lately.. I don't know what my problem is, I just keep getting frustrated with everyone and everything. No one's really doing anything wrong or anything out of the ordinary, but whatever it is that they're doing, is making me mad. Oh well..I guess I'll get over it eventually..I hope so.



<marquee>...PartyTonight...</marquee>
 
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12:23pm 05/08/2007
 
mood: frustrated
why an ex???
 
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three surprises..   
02:01am 21/10/2006
 
mood: grateful
1. The Little Mermaid
2. Pink Hockey Tape??
3. "I'm not leaving tomorrow..we're home for the weekend"



...AMAZING way to start the weekend. :)



...i love him...i love him...i love him...i love him...i love him...i love him...i love him...i love him
 
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amazing..   
12:58am 16/09/2006
 
mood: excited
wow what a way start a weekend

despite joe's leg being in need of surgery because of injury..
and erika being in the hospital because of her arm..


my night just got a million times better when brad said he's coming home. He's on his way now.

..this is the start to an AMAZING weekend..



ILOVEYOUBRADEVERETTE
 
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Finally..   
06:27pm 13/09/2006
  So, basically.... I'm one of the four captains of the Whitesboro Varsity Gymnastics team, and I absolutely love it. Like, seriously.. today I think I acted more like a captain than I have all season when I was trying to get the kids to vote for me. - I know I'm only captain because all 4 seniors are, but I love how Quack said that I actually do contribute to the team a lot ... I thought she never saw that before.

I miss my boyfriend, but..

it's been a good day. :)



"I love you; I loved you all along; And I miss you; Been far away for far too long; I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go; Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore"
 
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10:54pm 10/09/2006
 
mood: lucky
So I basically got a diamond ring for our 3 month ...

wow.




I love him with all my heart. Not because of that... I just.. Love him.

<3
 
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Brad..   
11:28pm 07/09/2006
 
mood: ... i miss you
"I love you.. I loved you all along.. and I miss you.. been far away for far too long. I've been dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go .. stop breathing if i don't see you anymore.." - Nickelback

I love you. I swear you mean soo much to me and I'm sorry for the way I've been acting lately.. It's just so hard seeing you go through every day without me & still be happy. I mean ... I know that's the way it has to be, and of course I want you to be happy.. I just miss the way things were and I can't wait until next summer when they can be like that again. You have my heart.. all of it. I promise. I don't know what I would do without you. I want my mom to go to sleep.. like ... Now. - so that I can call you and talk to you for about a half hour or so before I go to sleep. I'm tired but there's no way I'm falling asleep tonight without having a good conversation with you. I just love you and I miss you more than you could ever imagine. I hate college already and I'm not even in it yet. I can't wait until this weekend when I can just be with you every day for three days straight.. and just hold you and tell you that I love you. You mean the world to me, gorgeous, and I don't know what I would do without you. You're the most amazing boyfriend a girl could ever ask for. You're so perfect. We'll make it through this.. I know we will. I love you.


"Fate is an elegant, cold-hearted WHORE. She loves salting my wounds, yes, she enjoys nothing more." - The Spill Canvas
 
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I miss you..   
10:28am 01/09/2006
 
mood: excited
Soo.. I haven't updated this in a while.. I figure it's about time. Brad left for college last sunday.. I miss him like crazy. He's coming home today, though.. so i'm excited about that. Gymnastics started a few weeks ago, and it's going pretty well so far.... except for that Sam hurt her knee and Cori pulled a muscle so theyre both out for a while. I got my motorcycle permit yesterday.. haha I don't know why.. I was bored at DMV, though.. so I figured I'd take it for the hell of it, and I passed. Well, lately I've just been kind of hanging out around my house with nothing to do, so if you ever want to do anything.. give me a call. I got a new cell # and it's finallyyyyy VERIZONNN! I'm so excited. IM me or something or idk find some way to contact me if you want the new number. The old number is now my mom's, so I guess if you need to you could call that, too. I'll get the message eventually. I got my senior pictures taken the other day. I should be getting the proofs pretty soon. I was supposed to get them yesterday, but they weren't ready, so they said to call back this morning. My mom hasn't called yet, though.. she's waiting 'til after noon. My dad found a puppy on our back porch the other night.. It was Sunday night. He was a little Yorkshire Terrier and his name was Ragamuffin. We couldn't get ahold of the owner, so we kept him over night and he slept in my bed. He was adorable, but he drove my allergies crazy.. haha. Well, I guess I should probably get in the shower and start cleaning up my room and the house.. Hopefully I'll stick to updating this more often.



"But, my god, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles..."
 
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10:28pm 08/03/2006
 
mood: confused
..So you know..
I don't really like being called a player.
.. or a border-line slut, for that matter.
..especially by my own mother.
But you know..shit happens I guess.
I don't even know what I did to deserve this.



..I'm sorry if I hurt you. <3
 
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//WereSo80's.   
04:09am 05/03/2006
 
mood: tired
So Alyssa Spina's Sweet 16 birthday party was tonight. Cori and I went together with our "dates," Josh Mullen and Andre Short. Josh was Cori's "date," and I was with Andre. We had to dress in 80's clothes and all that. The idea of the party really was pretty cool. There was a dance floor with all these crazy lights & a DJ & such, and on each of the tables there was a different game from the 80's/early 90's maybe. (I don't remember when the games came out, but I remember playing them as a kid). So yeaaah I didn't really dance, and I feel kind of bad about that, but I just wasn't comfortable. I don't know why. Thennnnn Andre Josh & Cori came over after the party for about 45 minutes or so. That was pretty cool. After they left, Cori and I just hung out for a while, then Stew, Brad & Tim stopped by for a while. It was nice just hanging out with them and not having like 228947397477792397 people around, telling you what to do and getting mad if you talk to "the wrong person." Oh well. That's life. Hahaha Josh was dancing with Cori tonight and he split the back of his pants. It was awesome.

I realized today that I really should wear my retainer all the time like I'm supposed to. My teeth are getting really crooked and it's like I'm starting to get bucked teeth. Ew. Maybe when I'm older and actually have some money, I'll get Invisalign or something. I hate crooked/dirty teeth. They're digusting.

Wow it was a pretty stupid idea for the winter to put my bed right in front of my window. It's pretty cold over here.

I kind of want to make out with someone right now. I don't know why. I'm just kind of bored and well you know..It'd be fun. Nothing serious, just innocent kissing. Nothing too wrong with that as long as it's the right person.

Well, I suppose I should probably get some sleep. It's 4:19 and I was kind of hoping for someone to get online but they must be sleeping I guess I'll just go to sleep, too.

Goodnight.
 
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11:49pm 22/02/2006
  so nik..we're back to livejournal..
what ever happened with kiwibox?
u still use that? lol




...i want to drink so bad right now.
i'll wait until tomorrow...


{{Walmart scavenger hunt is awesome. hahaha}}
 
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myspace is overrated   
12:22am 22/02/2006
 
mood: impressed
I think I'm going to come back to livejournal. I've been using myspace lately, and I'm kind of addicted to it, but I think it's pretty overrated. I realized that today when I was walking around the mall with Steph and I went into Hot Topic only to see two shirts about myspace. It's pretty rediculous.

Well Derek and I broke up.

yeah, that's the end of that lol

I'm talking to Meg Barry right now. It feels like we've never really stopped talking.. Even though it's been a few years. I like it.



I've been hanging out with Andre and all them lately. I love it.

I get to see Tim play at the valleybrook on thursday. i'm pretty excited about that. he's amazing @ guitar.

O.A.R. is coming to the Utica Aud soon!!!!!!!!! I'm sooo going to that concert..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


<3
 
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11:39pm 19/06/2005
 
mood: thankful
...I love you more than anything or anyone who's ever really meant anything to me before...I know it may sound pathetic, but you are absolutely everything to me. I never want to do anything to hurt you or make you upset, and I don't ever want to lose you.


...I'm so in love with you...
 
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12:55am 18/06/2005
 
mood: aggravated
wow sometimes people just bother me
 
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11:47pm 17/03/2005
 
mood: aggravated
Wow! People bother me. Why does everyone feel such a strong need to be "cool," and how is spreading a false rumor cool anyway?! Arggh! Well, I guess that's just life, and you need to deal with it. I'm in too good of a mood to let it be ruined by a false rumor that may not even be spreading. If it's not true, why bother stressing over it? I guess when you're in highschool, people's opinions are supposed to mean a lot, but I've given up. I don't really care anymore. --- Think what you want. I'm myself, and that's the way it's going to stay.
 
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survey   
11:36pm 17/03/2005
 
mood: sleepy

Name: Tiffany
Birthday: May 7th, 1989
Birthplace: Utica, NY
Current Location: Whitesboro, NY
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: reddish brown
Height: 5'3"ish
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: I'm a mut lol.. mostly Italian and French I think
The Shoes You Wore Today: black hightop converse
Your Weakness: anything orange flavored
Your Fears: spiders, death, the dark
Your Perfect Pizza: pepperoni..from Nino's
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: not be so lazy .. lose about 4 or 5 lbs
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: "get away from me"
Your Best Physical Feature: probably eyes
Your Bedtime: umm .. when my eyes close?
Your Most Missed Memory: gymnastics away meets
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi (with crushed ice)
MacDonalds or Burger King: Burger king
Single or Group Dates: single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: umm .. there's a difference?
Chocolate or Vanilla: depends on what it is ... i'm not a big fan of either
Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino
Do you Smoke: nope!
Do you Swear: not really
Do you Sing: rarely .. never in front of anyone
Do you Shower Daily: ew..YES
Have you Been in Love: most definitely
Do you want to go to College: yep
Do you want to get Married: I do
Do you belive in yourself: to do what?
Do you get Motion Sickness: nope not really
Do you think you are Attractive: nope
Are you a Health Freak: ha! no way

Do you get along with your Parents: if that's what you want to call it ..
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes I do
Do you play an Instrument: nope .. I want to play guitar, though
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: in small amounts
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date: that depends on what you'd consider a date
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: I don't think so
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: ick .. nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no
In the past month have you been on Stage: nope
In the past month have you been Dumped: nooo
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: if my bathtub counts ..
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: noo
Ever been Drunk: not really
Ever been called a Tease: YES
Ever been Beaten up: nah
Ever Shoplifted: nope
How do you want to Die: I don't
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Forensic sketch artist
What country would you most like to Visit: italy/france/greece
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: light blue or dark brown
Favourite Hair Color: whichever looks better on the individual
Short or Long Hair: long
Height: 6'ish
Weight: 120-160
Best Clothing Style: skate/rock
Number of Drugs I have taken: none that weren't prescription
Number of CDs I own: too many to count
Number of Piercings: 5 .. all in the ears
Number of Tattoos: zero
Number of things in my Past I Regret: nothing major

 

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!

 

 

 
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